So it's been a while since I've actually posted a journal but lord knows how nice it feels to be typing a proper update like I used to. I've been doing so much art lately that it's been hard finding time downloading the pictures all from my camera to the computer and then having to go through the process of editing and posting on to DA...it gets kind of annoying. I'll probably have to do it sometime during the Thanksgiving holidays which are coming up in two weeks.
Besides art-ing a lot during the past two months, I've been trying to get into the gist of high school life. I've joined tons of clubs and have been neck deep in homework some days but it's all been good. I've tried making friends which actually hasn't been a total utter failure. I found someone who I can just converse to whenever I need to talk about Supernatural and I ended up meeting my Spanish teacher's daughter - they're both pretty chill.
My Grandmother is leaving in a couple of days and I'm not too sure if I should be glad or if I should be sad. She looks at me with disdain whenever she has to lay her eyes on my unruly hair. And the fact that she has this concrete structure of how a proper young lady should behave is really annoying. There's also the fact that she and my mother don't really have the best relationship with one another because of the fact that my grandma was a pretty shitty mother...I think that's the reason why my mother has been so down lately. She's uncharacteristically tired over the past couple of months and she thinks so lowly of herself because she doesn't have the greatest job in the world. When I suggested her the fact that she might even have depression, she said "people like us don't get mental diseases" and I have no idea what that means but I'm scared. She's been crying so much lately and I've been trying to act as her support - I do think she might need help, though.
I'm sorry that I kind of regurgitated everything that was on my mind in the entry, writing out things usually is the first step to having a clearer mind. Write a comment down below because I love talking to ya'll and I've been feeling kind of lonely so, yeah. Besides that, thank you for reading! Have a wonderful day!
Urvi Panda (The-Artist-Incognito)
- Listening to: Pearl Jam - Ten
- Reading: A Mango Shaped Space - Wendy Mass
- Watching: Supernatural Season 5
heyy its okay to take a full page to rant about things. I think it's better than just keeping everything inside. lUCKYY you have your winter break soon mine is in 2 months haha. I cant wait to see your new art!
Well, it's technically not "winter break" - thanksgiving is more of a three day break at the end of November so we could help prepare food and just chillax for a bit....
ohhhh right!! i forgot about that. in canada we have it in october. i hope u get to chillax a lOT (also i dont know if u got my note from a while ago haha)
Aw, your Mum will be fine I'm sure. She's probably just trying to figure out how to get over having spent time with her Mum. If they don't have the best relationship, then spending time with her must be horrendous. I'm sure she will pick up she's lucky to have a wonderful daughter like you around xx
Aw thanks and I really do hope so
I'm sure she will be fine. I'm sure she has a friend or someone to confide in. Or maybe she will just figure it out herself. Relationships aren't always easy. It's hard if people expect you to 'get on' and you just don't. A mother/daughter relationship is generally expected to be a close one, and that's not always the case. Big hugs to you and always here if you need me