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Hey Deviants.
I've been pretty inactive on Deviant Art lately...just posting things and replying to the few comments that I receive on posts. And there is a reason besides school and stress and all that. And I'm going to spill everything on this post so the following words are going to mainly rant-y.
So, about a month or two ago, my parents found out I'm queer. It was absolutely terrible. I'm from an Indian heritage and that basically means that they're just not accepting of anything outside of the typical Indian norm. Indians can't be attracted to their own gender! (notice the sarcasm) Basically, my mother confronted me about this and I got so freaked out that I just told them because I've been hiding such a big thing from her for such a long time. But honestly, I wanted to tell them this much later in my life...preferably when I'm out of the house. My mom was obviously very upset and expected that from her, but I expected her to also be understanding as well. So obviously she told my father and we had this long conversation which involved my mother crying and blaming herself for everything and my dad repeatedly saying that I'm confused. Since that night, we've had tons of fights. They keep on telling me that I'm confused I'm confused I'm confused I'm confused I'm confused I'm confused.....and that's all I really am, aren't I? Seriously, I feel so hollow thinking about it because for those two weeks after that night was the possible feeling I have felt. The people who are supposed to love you unconditionally...just not anymore. Finally, they reached the conclusion that I have a mental disorder and who better to go to for help than a psychologist? So I went to the psychologist and much to their surprise *dramatic gasp* the psychologist couldn't do anything about it because apparently I don't have a mental disorder. Who would have known? So on the car ride back, my parents again started yelling at me. My mom started crying again and my dad even called me a prostitute (even though I have never dated anyone). They are completely misinformed about my sexuality and they won't even try to do any researched on the topic so they can at least try to enlighten themselves. I had a dance performance later on that day so it helped me take my mind off of that. It's definitely cooled down a lot since then. I told them that "I'm making progress" and that "I'm trying very hard" as well and they just gobble it up. They just tell me to pray to God and hope he helps me get off the path I'm in. Otherwise, they've been pretending that the incident never happened. However, they still have trust issues, so they basically blocked every social media and blogs on my computer. This includes Deviant Art, Tumblr, Youtube, Blogger, etc. Fortunately, the computers at the library have not been blocked so I have been able to post things when I find the free time. Also, being on the robotics team at school has helped a ton because literally 75% of the team identifies as lgbt and my friends have been very supportive.
God - I feel completely drained from writing that. But at least you all are informed...
From,
Urvi Panda (The-Artist-Incognito)
I've been pretty inactive on Deviant Art lately...just posting things and replying to the few comments that I receive on posts. And there is a reason besides school and stress and all that. And I'm going to spill everything on this post so the following words are going to mainly rant-y.
So, about a month or two ago, my parents found out I'm queer. It was absolutely terrible. I'm from an Indian heritage and that basically means that they're just not accepting of anything outside of the typical Indian norm. Indians can't be attracted to their own gender! (notice the sarcasm) Basically, my mother confronted me about this and I got so freaked out that I just told them because I've been hiding such a big thing from her for such a long time. But honestly, I wanted to tell them this much later in my life...preferably when I'm out of the house. My mom was obviously very upset and expected that from her, but I expected her to also be understanding as well. So obviously she told my father and we had this long conversation which involved my mother crying and blaming herself for everything and my dad repeatedly saying that I'm confused. Since that night, we've had tons of fights. They keep on telling me that I'm confused I'm confused I'm confused I'm confused I'm confused I'm confused.....and that's all I really am, aren't I? Seriously, I feel so hollow thinking about it because for those two weeks after that night was the possible feeling I have felt. The people who are supposed to love you unconditionally...just not anymore. Finally, they reached the conclusion that I have a mental disorder and who better to go to for help than a psychologist? So I went to the psychologist and much to their surprise *dramatic gasp* the psychologist couldn't do anything about it because apparently I don't have a mental disorder. Who would have known? So on the car ride back, my parents again started yelling at me. My mom started crying again and my dad even called me a prostitute (even though I have never dated anyone). They are completely misinformed about my sexuality and they won't even try to do any researched on the topic so they can at least try to enlighten themselves. I had a dance performance later on that day so it helped me take my mind off of that. It's definitely cooled down a lot since then. I told them that "I'm making progress" and that "I'm trying very hard" as well and they just gobble it up. They just tell me to pray to God and hope he helps me get off the path I'm in. Otherwise, they've been pretending that the incident never happened. However, they still have trust issues, so they basically blocked every social media and blogs on my computer. This includes Deviant Art, Tumblr, Youtube, Blogger, etc. Fortunately, the computers at the library have not been blocked so I have been able to post things when I find the free time. Also, being on the robotics team at school has helped a ton because literally 75% of the team identifies as lgbt and my friends have been very supportive.
God - I feel completely drained from writing that. But at least you all are informed...
From,
Urvi Panda (The-Artist-Incognito)
Yay! Update!
Hey Deviants!
Happy 2016...22 days late So for the past couple of weeks, I've been studying my butt off for midterms and as of today, it's officially over and I have my life back now! I swear to goodness, I'm so happy right now that I'm going to read a couple of books, create art I'm proud of, and dance around to the Ramones or something. I have so many ideas and I just can't wait to put them on to paper. Besides the tragedy of midterms, I also decided to take up French because why the heck not? And I'm going to go to my first english concert ever ^_^ I say english because I've been to tons of concerts by Indian artist before and they're al
An Adventure! - Piermont Village School 2015
Hey Deviants!
So last Friday, I had the opportunity to got an a trip with my dance teacher to a the northern New Hampshire town of Piermont to teach at a local school there. The trip was about three or two hours long and this was one of the first times that I've been without my parents for over a day which was exciting. After coming home from school on Thursday, I hurriedly packed my bags and my dance teacher picked me up to set forth our journey. When we got to Piermont, it was around seven o'clock at night but it was pitch black. We stayed a motel there which, fan fact, was also a drive in movie theater. Cool, right?
Anyways, the next day
Featuring Brilliance
Hey Deviants!
So, I haven't made one of these feature things in a while because of school/life/etc. but I'm here now so let's get going - shall we?
Gosh, I just get so inspired every time I go on this website - okay, I have to practice some dance now for the performance that I have today I'll try not to stress out so much about it. Thanks for reading!
From,
Urvi Panda (The-Artist-Incognito)
#Artist Problems
Do any of you work really, really hard on an artwork for a while and then when you finally finish it, you're relieved, but at the same time you're like "So, what do I do with my life now?" Is that just me?
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I'm not on here much at the moment either so I've only just got this, I'm not sure when it was posted. So sorry to hear about all the drama you're getting at home. I hope in time they will support you for who you are. Keep strong